We all have experience something; a lost friendship, a bitter painful breakup., someone whom we love, but who doesn’t love us, a loved one who has died, someone who walked away from us, a violation, a betrayal, a rejection and even a nasty fight. We all have something that has caused us pain, grief, sadness, shame, resentment, anger, guilt and bitterness.
If you don’t, then you’re one of the few blessed souls born with rhinoceros skin, or else you just don’t allow yourself to feel anything. But for most of us mere mortals, we've all had something that has taken us to hell and back. And as for gay, lesbian, bisexual and transgenders, they have our fair share of painful words hurled at them; rejections, strained family relationships, prejudices.. Pain is indeed inevitable. Yeap, we’ve all got plenty of pain to go around.
Most of us keep our pains inside of us, hiding behind a smiling exterior, or at least an exterior that keeps people from looking in. Our pain runs very deep and we don’t realize that all of our accumulated pain influences everything we do.
However, lots of people are able to express their pain creatively. Our isolation and pain has given many of us fuel for our creativity. But just because we can express our pain, doesn’t mean it’s still not there.Pain sticks with us. Pain from rejection stops us from reaching out. Pain from broken relationships prevent us from seeking new relationships. Pain from broken trust keeps us alone and friendless.
Some of us become quietly more reserved, less apt to smile or meet people, protecting our heart. But for others, the pain is so massive that it has lead some to substance and alcohol abuse, obsessive and compulsive behavior, promiscuity, unresolved anger and resentment, abusive relationships, a distrust of people, depression, acting out, suicide, low self esteem, etc. and etc. and etc.
You just can’t hold onto so much pain without it coming out in very bad ways. Pain takes a toll on us and doesn’t go away very easily. Many of us keep our pain alive for years and even decades. I think most of us shove our pain into a closet ignoring it and not realizing that it is growing like a nasty fungus. It hurts, but we’ve gotten used to it.
How many of us still pine for a lost love, romanticizing it with longing, but in the process keep ourselves forever stuck in the past. Or for those who have loved ones who have passed, our pain is especially sharp. We miss them so much it physically hurts. And some of us just have the pain of feeling alone and unloved. Our pain is usually worse at night, but in the day, we put on the fake smile pretending nothing touches us, but it’s a lie. Our pain prevents us from getting on with our lives and experiencing the now.
Some people seek psychiatry or therapy to talk things out, and to this I say congratulations for taking an active role in dealing with your pain. And yet others, do their inner work on their own whether by sharing their burden with friends or motivating themselves. But most of us just let time dull our pain.
Working on our pain is VERY IMPORTANT if we are to grow spiritually. Some of our pain came decades ago and some just yesterday. And even though our pain hurts so much, we still ignore it. We just hide it from view and hope no one will see it. There are no easy solutions to resolving our issues.We have to move on and have faith constantly no matter what crosses our path, no matter what it takes.
Each pain needs something different, but we need to get on it. We can no longer afford to let our pain heap onto itself while our lives choke. The worst would be if we didn’t deal with our pain and just became cold inside. Our pain is there to help us learn how to love, not to stop loving. We need to bury all our pain of yesterday, so we can be alive tomorrow. We need to take the step to deal with and let go of our pain.
Some things bring us joyful and painful memories that we don’t want to give up. Yes, we can romanticize that which is killing us, but realize it is hurting you now and wrecking your future.Our pain is not without a purpose and you should not be ashamed of having pain because experiencing pain confirms that you are a sensitive loving soul. A human being.
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