21.12.12

21.12.12. Guess we have heard enough about what to expect. It somehow freaks a hell out of me after reading about Mayan-Calander-related articles. I mean, what if... I do not even dare to say it here. Would you spend the day with your family just in case? Many different theories, meteorite collision; natural disasters are on the increase. Hurricane Sandy being the most recent. Maybe I have gone too far but what if those predictions are true?

I can't even imagine if it happens. I have so much to do. I have a lot of things which are not accomplished yet. Maybe this a false alarm but I can't avoid myself from joining the frenzy because all I have in mind is what if?????

I wish it will not happen in my lifetime. I am so not ready for the end of the world. I could not foresee myself facing this destruction. It would be too much to bear. Will I survive the catastrophe? If I survive, how would I face every passing days ahead? Will I be courageous and strong enough to move on? What would happen to my loved ones? Will us make it together? Would life be different? Too many puzzling questions I have now.  

I am looking forward not for that day to come but for so many other agendas that I have in mind. Dear, God. It does not have to be this time. Grant us with another zillion blissful years.

Copy and Paste

When I blog-walk, it is pretty annoying to realize that not one blog is different from another. They share similar story. Maybe, that is acceptable. But, what if those so-called popular bloggers start to share the similar photos? Perhaps, this is still bearable too. Now, when the entire text is just identical, I guess I have had enough. Just try keying-in one trending keyword. Wallllaaaaaaa, you will see at around 50 blog sites sharing the very same post. It is obvious that those bloggers are not doing any research. They do not even bother. What matters to them is the number of visitors which makes theirs a popular blog. What a shame. I don't mind if you properly quote but yours is all about reproducing, copying and pasting. Well, most of you bloggers take it for granted by merely acknowledging the source at then end of your so-called-research-based-entry. Please, dearest bloggers to at least rephrase the lines or perhaps re-write the whole story in your own words. I respectfully demand you to do us, you avid readers, some justice.

If I Knew by George Michael Grossman

If I knew it would be the last time
That I’d see you fall asleep,
I would tuck you in more tightly
and pray the Lord, your soul to keep.

If I knew it would be the last time
that I see you walk out the door,
I would give you a hug and kiss
and call you back for one more.

If I knew it would be the last time
I’d hear your voice lifted up in praise,
I would video tape each action and word,
so I could play them back day after day.

If I knew it would be the last time,
I could spare an extra minute
to stop and say “I love you,”
instead of assuming you would KNOW I do.

If I knew it would be the last time
I would be there to share your day,
Well I’m sure you’ll have so many more,
so I can let just this one slip away.

For surely there’s always tomorrow
to make up for an oversight,
and we always get a second chance
to make everything just right.

There will always be another day
to say “I love you,”
And certainly there’s another chance
to say our “Anything I can do?”

But just in case I might be wrong,
and today is all I get,
I’d like to say how much I love you
and I hope we never forget.

Tomorrow is not promised to anyone,
young or old alike,
And today may be the last chance
you get to hold your loved one tight.

So if you’re waiting for tomorrow,
why not do it today?
For if tomorrow never comes,
you’ll surely regret the day,

That you didn’t take that extra time
for a smile, a hug, or a kiss
and you were too busy to grant someone,
what turned out to be their one last wish.

So hold your loved ones close today,
and whisper in their ear,
Tell them how much you love them
and that you’ll always hold them dear

Take time to say “I’m sorry,”

“Please forgive me,” “Thank you,” or “It’s okay.”

And if tomorrow never comes,

you’ll have no regrets about today

Marriage

Some even called me DESPERADO because I do at times post on my Facebook wall how much I wanted to be in love. Desperate or not, I do feel left out when one after another of my closest friends finally tie their knots. In December alone, SIX, ENAM, 6 wedding invitations await me. Arghhhhhhhhhhhhhh.. People would turn to me and ask "When is yours?" It is not that I do not want to, but I just can't find THE ONE, yet. I am not choosy but I am not blessed with options. Trust me on this. Not every new teachers are single (I assume that you know that I am a teacher by profession). In fact, even if there is a single lady teacher in my school, I... speechless..

I admit that my friends' marriage ignites that unhealthy green sparks out of me. Of all people, those who are still single, unattached and not in a relationship like me must be feeling the same way too. Well, maybe not. Maybe we view marriage differently.

Just now, I watched "Aku Terima Nikahnya." I know. Don;t you laugh. I do watch Malay movies and some are really good. Anyway, I found that the last quotation is really interesting and it keeps me thinking.  

Kadangkala orang yang paling mencintaimu adalah orang yang tak pernah menyatakan cintanya padamu kerana orang itu takut kau berpaling dan menjauhinya. Dan bila dia suatu masa hilang dari pandanganmu….kau akan menyedari dia adalah cinta yang tidak pernah kau sedari…. 

So, what do you have to say about this?

Life, still unfair after so many years...

How old am I now? 26 and after breathing so much air, I still think that life is unfair. Some do not need to work hard and they get everything they want. I and few others on the other hand have to work the whole life just to make things happen. Nothing seems to come easy. Yes, yes, people say, no pain no gain. How much more pain should I experience to gain something that I truly want? Is it worth it? People also say that something which is hardly earned is better appreciated. Well, if you have to go through the same circle for like forever, being positive all the time could be very nauseating. There is another saying which claimed that in order to be happy, you ought to forget about what you want and enjoy what you have. They also say make the best out of everything no matter how insignificant and how little that one thing is.And again, I have always been positive about this. In fact too positive that each other, others simply get what they want while I always have to struggle. You may be asking, what else do I want then? I have a steady job. I have those basics. I got to eat. I never even face any trivial hardship. I want to stop wanting. I want to stop feeling like life is unfair. I want just to enjoy everything till it lasts. I just want to be happy and make others happy. Not until I accept that life is really unfair, will I be happy.

Abandoned

I have just woke up. Still in my boxer and I am all-wrapped in my cozy comforter. Hmmm, I suddenly have the urge to visit my blog. I have not being writing for quite sometimes. Thanks to FACEBOOK!! Hahaha.. Well, I used to pour my emotion here and this has been like my diaries ever since. And now, the art of writing has lost its significance. It is saddening to suddenly lost what you once hold dear to, I think, I just need to write because I find my solace in writing..Well, do expect my coming updates. It would be on my rants on ... jeng3.. hahaha.. daaaaaaa...

Some of my random Facebook Statuses

 

Dearest all,
Whoever I choose to be with, to make friend with or to be related to DO NOT DEFINE ME. I am the one who defines me. So, the best you could do is to stop ridiculing others because I am solely responsible for my own action. I do acknowledge the staggering power of peer-influence. But, in the end of the day, it is an individual choice to actually decide what is good or bad for him or her. I AM THE ONE who MAKES THE CHOICE. So, it is MY DECISION be it good or bad; not his or hers. WHATEVER COMES THEREAFTER is MY RESPONSIBILITY; not his or hers!

 

Whenever I receive a friend request, my forehead starts to wrinkle as I try to make some sense out of a few weird-Lady-Gaga-like-and-nearly-impossible-to-pronounce name such as Msycerhatitoo la, Dredirado la, Encykipodika la. Dyshypiora la. Come on, people! What has actually happened to your beautiful, real, actual name? Thus, I choose to ignore until you are mentally sound. Eheh. Good morning....

Looking at the doctors' table, no carbonated drinks are served. Ours, on the other hand, are colourful with an array of sugary and sweet drinks. Leading by example, eyh?  

I think I know what love is. You can't stop smiling. You can never get bored. Every moment is always a goosebump moment. No matter what people say, through thick and thin, rain or shine, you would faithfully stay. And I think, I am in love with this one voice that sweeps me off my feet. Owh, it is a God-gift talent. It has been 17 years now and you know what, the love I have is still as strong as it was back then. (Sorry, not the big news that you might wanna hear. Hehe..)

Come December, SIX wedding invitations await me. To my dearest buddies  I am just so doubly happy for each and everyone of you!!! Congratulations in advance. I'll try to be there. May your marriage be filled with all the right ingredients: a heap of love, a dash of humor, a touch of romance, and a spoonful of understanding. May your joy last forever. Your wedding day may come and go, but may your love forever grow.  

Has anybody watched Rejang: Libasan Maut? Obviously, the producer, the scriptwriter and whoever works behind the film didn't do the homework. They failed big time in translating the culture of the Iban. The lifestyle, the 'melah pinang,' the way the Ibans honouring their guests and even the costumes are all messed up. This may lead to misinterpretation which is already sickening. Thanks anyway for sparing us an avenue in the mainstream silver screen. However, I would appreciate it better if you care to at least do a thorough research before your work meets the eyes of the public.

Surrounded by senior teachers makes me feel so young. And the fact that they call me "BOY" makes me feel so much younger.. Hehehe..

Pardon me, but I can't help from being cynical. Dearest flood expert, I praise you at the highest because your flood prevention mechanism seems to be working perfectly well. If I recall correctly, you infamously claimed that flood is already Sibu's history. Maybe the watery road I passed through just now was only a 'flash'flood. (U r right!! FLASHflood it is) Kudos for your another GREAT feat. And yea, let's spend some more public fund perhaps on hmmmm, a PARTY, celebrating your success on improving the first-class facility and infrastructure in Sibu. Owh wait, the bumpy ride which is characterised by the existence of those potholes along Sibu HIGHWAY would be a blessing since it 

exudes clubbing-like feel. Just great!!

A group of students were debating about my current status. One of them said defensively and confidently. "Come on. He is ONLY 24!" And, there I was enjoying a bowl of my favourite steaming-hot foochow noodle. I wanted to pay for my meal when the tauke neo asked me, "Are those yours?" referring to Angel and Ann. I replied, "Yes." She was like, "No way!! You are too young for that. Your BABY FACE and all. I thought you are bujang trang tang tang." Hahaha.. I could smile to myself (proudly).

Life is like the ocean. It can be calm or still, and rough or rigid, but in the end it's always beautiful. Today will never come again. Be a blessing. Be a friend. Encourage someone. Take time to care. Let your words heal, and not wound. If you do not like the person, it is ok. But do not involve me. Sometimes, I think you overly underestimate my judgment. Spread the love instead, not the hatred and suspicion. Because people, SOMEDAY, SOMEHOW, SOMEWHERE, that very person whom you unfairly judge will come in handy...