Marital Institution

This is one of the so many instances that I normally choose not to discuss.

"Pang, udah bisi ka?"
"Bila gik ko mok bergerek?"
"Enda patut nadai orang indu."
"Why aren't you looking for the one now?"

Those are some of the questions that remain unanswered. Why does the lady become so mysterious? Hahaha.. Well, I guess I have discussed enough about this curious case of soulmate hunting in my other entries.

O.K. I know that I am now 23. Old enough to establish a romantic relationship. In fact, it is indeed THE time for me to look for the one. But, it is not as easy as it is for so many others out there. Well, I do not want to be troubled by the SINGLE status that I am known for.

For the mean time, I want to enjoy my single life. I want to stay with my parents as long as I could because I love them so much. So much more than any other thing in this entire galaxy. I have my little brother to be taken care after. I have my nieces to love. Furthermore, I have been spending a huge amount of time outside my home since 2002. Living in the boarding school and studying has taken so much of my precious and priceless time from my family. I want to redeem those quality time with them.

If the lady is destined to be mine, she would be mine. So, I would not rush. I have not fulilled my duty as a son and as a brother or in fact as an uncle quite yet. That is my only commitment so far that I shall carry before I reach 25, maybe? Yea, the earliest I would think about this matter seriously would be perhaps when I am 25 or so.

Let me spend every penny of my first few salaries for my parents, for my family who have been working so hard to support my scholarly years. They deserve it. No amount of gold shall meet their sacrifices.

Not until I believed I have done enough, (I can never do enough) then, I would think of my personal life. Don't worry, my day would come. Even if it wouldn't, sob sob.. hehehe.. would it be too bad? Yea, I know it is a tragic.. hehe.. Well, I will let the time to decide and mould my future. Of course I would not solely depend on the time. I will work for it. Maybe not now.

Perhaps after I get myself a comfortable house and a car? Hahaha.. Good luck, Walter..

Stop

I will never sing you my song,
Because you never dance to its rhythm.
I will not read to you my book,
Because you asks me to change the characters within,
I would stop everything.

Mr. & Mrs. Rght

I believed that in everyone of us, we possessed this universal quality. We think that we are right. If it is reasonablly orchestrated, it would be just fine. We do have to stand for ourselves. To uphold what we believe. To be firm with our decision. To live with principles. Yes, we have to in order to protect our pride and image. However, if we think we are always right most of the times, it would hurt our image in one way or another.
I have been breathing for 23 years, living and mingling around with people of this species. The kind that will never give in. The kind that will fight for what they believe is true. No matter how hard the wind of change blows, their sail would hardly be readjusted. They do have problem with fixation.
Guys, you can't be right all the time. To think that you are, please learn the basic! We are imperfect. Remember that.
You might be pondering on what has driven me to talk about this. Days back, I was with this friend of mine. We talked leisurely almost about everything under the sun. The conversation seemed fine not until this sickening attitude of this fellow submerged. So unfortunate that this person's pair of eyes could only see from only too-narrow angle. Believing in something that may soothe the troubled soul that yearned for a moment of peace. Choosing to ignore the fact that to move on, we human have to openly accept people's criticism.
People may appear to be so good in layng our their argument. They may also appear seemingly confident about their judgment. Do they seriously do? If they do, why are they continuously being sidelined? Why do their entire personality change? Yet, they still put the blame on others for whatever they are now facing? Tragically, when others' offer their oipinion, it is seen as an insult. What is worst, they may even think that people are not sympathetic and emphatic enough just because they do not think alike..
When a pair of helping hand is treated as a kind of horrid, shameful jest, how else can others bring you back to life? You denied each. In fact, you are now pretending that you are enjoying your new life; the life that is so not yours. The joy that you indulged in is very temporary. You do all those to divert your attention which simply means, you refused to do anything to improve on your life. You listen only to your blue heart.
You will never change not until you learn to accept others' advice. You will be trapped in the agony that you self-create for a longer time. I can only shake my head from a distance seeing you destructing your own life.
It is time for you to re-construct your life. Hire a worthy engineer and a soulful architect to rebuild your disastrous life. You need a mega plan. You do need. one And for the re-construction to commence, open up your heart and shhhhh... listen... Just learn to listen...

Someone this desperate...

Honestly, my mind at this very moment is at the state of bliss. Somehow or rather, this fellow has tainted my beautiful soul. What I heard and witnessed is so overwhelming that I finally decided to spill it here.
Mate, the moment I walked out from your life, I thought that you would have learnt your lesson as much as I did. When you finally have found your solace in the other, I thought your life would be entirely different. But, I was not afterall greatly convinced that the same tragedy would not replicate itself one day.
My prediction has finally emerged into reality. I now see the institution that you built shattered. If my heart is filled with vengeance, for the heartache that you let me suffer, for the slanders, for the lies that you brilliantly crafted, I would be clapping my hands joyfully. However, thanks God that I am blessed with a good heart.
Mate, you have mistakenly thought that I am not well-informed of what is happening to you at this very moment. I know every single thing! I get to talked to my buddy about this and I was not at all surprised by the drama that I am now witnessing because it is very much similar to ours. Well, it can't be too dissimilar right? Afterall, you are the main actor and you are the Director.
The sms, the e-mails, the lies, the teary phone calls, the puppy eyes, the act, oh gosh! They are just THE SAME. It seems like I am watching a movie; a special tribute to an individual none other that me. The only different is, it is no longer between you and I, but it is between you and the other.
Why the same old tactics? This tickled me somehow! The way you beg for others' sympathy, the way you spread your LIES.. Sigh... You are such a crying baby, aren't you? So the very pathetic of you!! Huhu..
You are trying too hard to garner others' sympathy. Still, you are at the losing end. You would lose every individual that you 'CARE' for if you continuosly behave the way you are now.
Fine that your relationship is wrecked. But one thing that you will NEVER REALISED is the worth of that someone who you turn to whenever you are troubled. You come to him when you feel miserable. But, you turn away when you are 'GAY.' You WILL NEVER REALISED this, mate.If you would, it might be the end of the day...

My Super Current Addiction

While "Here In My Heart" by PlusOne still comfortably owns my soft spot, it has now competed with this lovely song entitled "In Love with YOU" by Jacky Cheung and Regina Velazquez. Just in love with this melodic song. So romantic.. If you are into soapy kind of a song, I would highly recommend you this song. Thanks again to Ah Bin for the song. It was actually sang by Raymond Lam in his recent sold-out "Let's Get Wet" Concert. Enjoy the lyrics.

Just a gentle whisper, tell
me that you'd gone
Leaving only memories,
where did we go wrong?
I couldn't find the words then,
so let me say them now
I'm still in love with you

Tell me that you love me,
tell me that you care
Tell me that you need me,
and I'll be there
I'll be there waiting...

I will always love you, I
will always stay true
There's no one who loves you like I do
Come to me now
I will never leave you, I will
stay here with you
Through the good and bad I will stand true
I'm in love with you

Now we're here together,
yesterday has past
Life is just beginning,
close to you at last
And I promise to you, I
will always be there
I give my all to you

Living life without you is
more that I can bear
Hold me close forever,
I'll be there...

I'll be there for you

I will always love you, I
will always stay true
There's no one who loves you like I do
This I promise...
I will never leave you, I will
stand here with you
Though the good and bad I will stand true
Hold me closer...
Our love is forever, holding us together
Nothing in this world can stop us now

Love has found

Love has found a way ...

I'm in love, I'm in love
Yes I'm in love, so in love
I'm so in love with you....