Tidaklah aku sebodoh itu (my first attempt trying to be poetic in BM)

Kau membisu, elok ku biarkan dahulu.
Penat sudah ku menunggu,
Namun kau tetap berpaling dariku.

Pedih hatiku terdengar sayup-sayup hilai tawamu,
Terpana aku seketika,
Kerna tidak kau begitu tika bersamaku.

Puas sudah ku cuba menyelami lubuk hatimu,
Namun tetap jua kau begitu,
Bukan sekali namun selalu aku diperlakukan begitu.
Bodohnya aku tetap bertahan dengan sikapmu.

Apa kau ingat hanya kau punya hati yang ingin dimengerti?
Lupakah kau bahawa aku punya sanubari yang turut mahu difahami?

Bodohnya aku masih jua memberimu seluas-luas ruang,
Aku kira kini, aku bukan milikmu lagi.
Tidaklah aku sebodoh itu,
Menagih hatimu,
Tidaklah aku sebodoh itu,
Meminta secebis ruang hidupmu.

Jika aku tiada lagi harga,
Biarkan aku berlalu sayu.
Jika aku tiada lagi makna,
Lenyaplah aku dari kamus hidupmu.

Hairannya aku,
Masih jua aku umpamakan dirimu teman, sahabat dan rakan,
Tapi, bukan begitu nilaiku padamu.
Kau hanya bertandang tika hati menari gembira,
Kemudian, kau tinggalkan aku terpinga-pinga,
Di saat terkedip-kedip anak mata cuba meneroka di mana silapku,
Kau muncul kembali seharum bunga,
Cuba ku lupakan dinginnya sikapmu seketika.

Suatu hari nanti,
Bila sudah rapat tertutup pintu hatiku,
Jangan sesekali kau sesali,
Aku begini kerana tingkahmu begitu.
Jika kau punya hati batu,
Hatiku bisa menjadi sedingin salju,
Bisa menjadi sekeras permata biru.

Driving license

You gotta believe it... I lost my driving license the other nite. And it happened because I was so damn careless. What on earth would make me think that placing my wallet in the, (wat do we call it again?) 'bakul motosikal' was a sound idea? I put on a short with no pocket, ma.. So lazy to carry it on my hand that I ended up deciding on something really foolish...
I risked myself to be the victim of a snatch-thief. That is one. Secondly, I might have gotten my wallet flying with the gushing wind. Too bad, I refused to give these two likely-to-happen probabilities too much a thought though I have foreseen it!!! See.. See.. What a moron I was?
The nightmare was then realized! Yea, I lost it. Dear Robin had to sacrifice his dinner to help me to locate my license. We tracked slowly and patiently the route that we have taken for twice and it was nowhere to be found. Ahhhhhh... The search was not easy because we have to depend solely on our bare eyes. And it was at night!!
Then I told Robin to forget about it and suggested him to go for our dinner instead. You must be wondering after what had happened, how could I still have my appetite to eat? Anyway, I enjoyed my nasi goreng pattaya with 3 chicken and 2 beef satay!! Lick2... Hahaha.. Well, there is no use to cry over the spilt milk, right? Though deep inside, I couldnt stop cursing.. Huhuhu... Later, after our spoilt but yummie dinner, I checked the JPJ website for the nearest office. I got the address and the phone number as well as the hotline. Well, nothing much could be done not until the next morning.
I woke up early and I guess I was the first to call the JPJ. I told them that I lost my driving license and I asked them what shall I do next. I have a bewildering thought that I have to go to the police station to lodge a report, to go to the court for surat sumpah, to do this and to do that. Hahaha... So fortunate that all I got to do is to have my I.C photostated, bring along a passport-sized photo and get my RM20 ready.
Harni would be my next victim since I do not know where is the JPJ office located in Putrajaya. As generous and helpful as she always is, she agreed to help. Everything is sorted out well. Now, I have my driving license and I swear I would never repeat this dumb mistake ever again!!

Sooner than I thought

Should have done this earlier!!! I will be going home much much earlier than I thought I would. I am sooooooooooooo happy!!!!!!!! So very happy that I will be boarding the first flight to Sibu in less than 2-week. How can I not be happy? I hardly face another day here in UKM without having to think of home.. I guess that is the very reason that I got sick so easily. I have been coughing for more than a week.. I have done with the first circle of my antibiotics but it appeared to be not as effective as it had.
The power of heart has conquered the power of mind. Just can't wait. Can't sit still either. Owh.. Wanna start the countdown now...
Today is Sunday the 2nd... How many days left before Friday the 14th? Let us count together!
Lalalalalala.. llalalalal.. shut up Walt.. hahaha

Sssshhhh....

First to only you,
And he got if from you,
And now she got it from him,
Made known to a little few,
And finally everyone knew.

*****

The vow is broken,
The promise is wounded,
The trust is torn,
The secret is unhidden.

*****

Secret shall be kept to no one but you yourself,
The moment one is acquainted with it,
It would be spread like a bushfire..
And you would be backfired..
You would then be crashed and burnt!

*****

So, let us keep a seret, a secret,
Made is known to no one.
Not even to your close one.
Just no one...

*****

Learning to trust I shall not be,
Learning to be wise I ought to be...

Not worth comparing

Walking down my life, I met a lot of people with an array of amazing and some not-to-amusing background. To each, I have a vast different reaction. I may feel extremely delighted to come to realize that I am one of those lucky person on earth. At one moment, I may feel so disheartened and not so enthralled to learn the bitter fact that I may not be able to take pleasure in what the other person is enjoying on day-to-day basis. How unlucky I felt.
I am a kind of of a person who would be spellbound with the exquisiteness that the materialistic world brings. I love to be wrapped around the idea of elegance, sophistication and classiness. Often, I found myself crawling to climb up the social hierarchy.
However, it has never been too late to grasp the fact that regardless of which social class that one may belong to, everyone is blessed with happiness. It is crucial to understand that despite one's social status, everyone is tested with challenges; no one could escape this. Neither the Queen nor the ordinary citizen is leading a life without obstacles.
Hence, shall I then keep on comparing my life with the others whom I assume more fortunate than I do? Shall I then keep my eyes blinded with the splendour display that one may elaboratively flaunt and parade? Shall I then be so disprited with others' extra fortune? I believe I shall NOT!!
We could never imagine living a life of a person that we envy. Thus, before we really turn into a green-eyed monster, perhaps it would be better to try to think of what it takes to be in his or her position.
We secretively whisper to our dear heart, "How I wish that I bla3...." I do that frequently. In such a time, often we forget that those people are human too. No one can tell the hardship that they have to face so much like us do. Everyone, no matter what is your social status, DO have problems. Only how you deal with it makes a huge difference.
What I ought to learn it to live normally. I shall now open my heart, my mind and my soul to any possibility to experience the real meaning of life or at least to enjoy this life. Joy, sorrow, greed etc are just a part of life. The very humanly nature is that we can never be satisfied with what we have, aren't we? Rather than dreaming of a life that is not yours, Walter, WORK SOMETHING OUT!! Be grateful is the only answer to my greed for my fantasy. Hahaha...